My Dad

When I got home, I called my dad to talk about my nursing application. I looked up the application yesterday and I’ve been starting to get a game plan together! At first I was really nervous, but then I really starting getting excited. As I was talking to my dad today, the doubt started setting in again. My plan right now is to hopefully get accepted and start the program in the fall, then I can go on my mission at the beginning of next year. However, if I don’t get in then I’ll need to attend fall, apply again and do the first semester of the program during winter semester and go on my mission the following summer. The more I started thinking, the more worked up I got because I already have mission fever and I really want to go. I’m already waiting a year and I really don’t want to wait a year and a half. I started to get emotional as I conveyed this to my dad and he just told me that I had to trust in the Lord. He said that sometimes my plan isn’t always the Lord’s plan and that I just have to trust that things happen how and when they’re supposed to happen. He told me that serving a mission was a righteous desire and that I just had to make sure I was doing all the things that I know I’m supposed to be doing and everything will work out. He also told me that he had received a strong confirmation that a mission was right for me and that he had felt through the Spirit that I was supposed to serve one; he received this confirmation soon after the announcement was made when he was kind of freaking out about me serving a mission so soon. I have already received a confirmation for myself, but just the fact that my dad received one as well just made me feel so good. I’m trying to trust in the Lord, let go of my pride, and submit my will to His, but sometimes I just get so worked up. There are just some things in my life that I want really bad, like my mission and the opportunity to study nursing, but I don’t know…I really need to work hard to be on the Lord’s timetable.

    

Later this evening my dad sent me this text, “Hope I didn’t hurt your feelings today…I love you more than anything and have so much faith in you. You make me proud every day to be your dad. I know you will go far, achieve all your goals, and continue to be a blessing to all those who come to know you! You will be an amazing missionary, nurse, wife and mom. Love you my girl!” Well didn’t that one just start the waterworks again. I love my dad so much and am so grateful he is so supportive of me in everything that I want to do. I am so grateful that Heavenly Father put in this family and gave me the opportunity to learn from such wise parents. I only hope to be what my parents are to me for my own kids.

As I was studying my scriptures tonight in the New Testament I just felt peace after everything today. I know that my Savior and has endured all things for me. He knows exactly how I feel and has personally experienced every doubt and feeling of inadequacy that I’m currently experiencing. I came across some scriptures talking about peace from Christ and they really rang true for me! I know that He’s looking out for me and that He has a plan especially for me…I just have to trust Him and have a faith to figure out what it is, and have the faith to follow it.